SNOW DAY

Today the big snow machine in the sky is working double time. We got out of work at noon so that we could all make it home safely. My picture of apples and pears at my kitchen window is my choice of pic because it reminds me of summer when the sun was streaming in right there. It's kind of funny, but even though I am angry at the snow, the cold, the wet, the ice, the winter paraphenalia, I am a little more patient with it this year. Some of it has to do with making sure I have good supplies - a good car scraper, some warm boots, hat, coat and gloves and just taking it one day at a time. The only thing that happened lately that I want to mention was the death of a young lady from our community. She was only 28 years old and died of causes of which I did not find out. When it happened she was laying in her husband's arms. I know the husband too. Going to the calling hours was a sad but essential thing. I still feel very sad about it.

The tree lights are twinkling on Christmas Eve

All the presents are wrapped and ribboned and labeled

But the evening is strangely cold and quiet

Where there was laughter, there are sliding tears

Our favorite music softly lulling me with its poetry and harmony

I thought of the silver necklace selected with care

the books on philosophy, animals and how to make a pizza

She always knew how to make me smile - to forgive myself

I was never brave - she was the bravest of all - my darling - my love

The next thing I knew the daylight arrived - under the tree I had slept

Alone and grieving - an unexpected way to end such a promising start!

Goodbye, my darling - your angels called you home

The world without you is not one I own.

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A week before Christmas and sometimes there is sadness.

Sarah Palin and Christmas

My post has nothing to do with Sarah Palin, but just looking for attention. The Christmas season is upon us - the twinkly lights, the crowded malls, the Salvation Army bell ringers, the cold and nippy air, the dark days. It's all here and , as I do every year, start off with dread and doubt, the pall eventually lifts and I become one with the celebrating, shopping and baking masses. I do have a good excuse for being blue, however, since my parents both passed away a couple of years ago, my father in November and my mother 6 weeks later. Now my whole being seems to mourn when the holidays are coming around. I guess it's time for a new poem.

Twas 2 weeks before Christmas

I was shopping at the mall

I saw an older lady leaning wearily against a wall

She looked very sad and held her head low

Something about her - I just had to know

I slowly walked over and stood silently at her side

She raised her head up and turned her eyes to meet mine

Without a word, from my secret flask I poured her some wine

She beamed a knowing smile and yet a look of surprise

We clinked our stemmed glasses with tears in our eyes.

We stood there in silence sipping our sweet red

Looking at each other, nothing needed to be said

When our glasses were empty and the crowds had died down

I knew it was time for me to get back to town

We lingered and hugged with no notice of time

She embraced with a vigor of a woman in her prime

I packed up my things and threw her a wave

Knowing well in our lives, she and I would have to be brave

Hump Day

This week is flying by. Went to my niece's baby shower last Saturday and had such a fun 'girl' day. In fact, I was a bad girl - cheated at all the games and helped my great niece win one of them so she could get the prize. I had a nice long talk with my sister - don't get to do that very often. We are both having trouble dealing with our parents' deaths just about 3 years ago. She and I are very different people and don't have too much in common (except for music), but we both loved our parents with the same passion. The week since then has been flying by, weather getting cold and gray - UGH!!! My veganism is still making me happy - makes my shopping decisions so easy and my choice of restaurants. A local vegan restaurant is becoming my second home for food when I don't prepare it myself. Well, that's all the news for now. I think I will end with another poem:

The gray landscape was all around me
Reminding me - taunting me - challenging me -
Make some soup - hot tea - cocoa - comfort steamy food
Long johns, big fluffy scarves, wool mittens
Storms- snow - shivering - running with my eyes closed
Warning me to brace myself for the barren icy season to come

More Crazy Poetry

I wrote most of my poem collection about 5 - 10 years ago and I'm not sure I could write them now. See what you think about these 2.

Death in their Leers malcontents breathe heavy at my door
hot acrid air seeping beneath curling snarling seeking
exposed naked vulnerability
attack mode revenge riot
ever misunderstanding my motives comdemnation
welcoming my deserved punishment the dedicated wounded souls hacked
through clawing kicking death in their leers
righteousness in their hearts swirling savagely around me ripping at my pale wicked flesh flogging squeezing a worthless life
made breathless lifeless sacred retribution

Never Lie (a song) - no music written for it yet
Girl, it's not that I want to be free
it's just that I can clearly see
that I'm not good enough for you even though you think our love is true
These aren't the words I want to hear
Why don't you sit me down, buy me a beer risk the sliding of a tear and say
Baby, you and I are through
Just don't want you -
what can I do?
Instead you tell me I'm the best
So much nobler than the rest
Deserve a different better guy
Man, I hate it when you lie
These aren't the words I want to hear
Please sit me down, buy me a beer risk the sliding of a tear and say
Baby, you and I are through
Just don't want you -
nothin' can I do.
The moral of this story is if you wanna leave don't introduce her to Steve
but kiss her cheek and say goodbye
thanks for the good times let her plead -
let her cry but whatever you do - never lie!
Sit her down - buy her a beer
Risk the sadness - the heartbreaking tear but whatever you do - never lie!